Feelings of Weight Loss

As each day passes, I struggle with myself. I have crossed one more goal. I have left the 200's behind. I have lost 137 pounds. But as I look in the mirror I still see that fat person. I wear smaller clothes, have way to much energy to spend, and can do anything I want to. But that person in the mirror is still that fat person.

Everyone thinks weight loss is easy. Oh don't get me wrong, losing weight with bariatric surgery is easy. You can only eat small portions and if something doesn't agree with you, you throw the whole days worth up. You have to work out and struggle with the loose skin. And still that fat person is still there.

I only sleep two to three hours a night. I have so much energy my body wants to keep going and going.

So what will it take for me to see me now? Everyone that sees me is so shocked at how good I look. Amazing, awesome, great job, and wow. Today with tears in my eyes I sat in the truck and realized it has been over 32+ years since I was this light. Now is the time to teach me I am thin. I am smaller. I am a new person.

So when someone says bariatric surgery is easy. I smile and say, "No it isn't." I know what I have accomplished since October 12th 2017. I have lost 137 pounds. 5x tops to large extra large. 26w pants down to 15 16. And this weekend I had a yard sale and sold my plus size clothes. Yes everything I have been through was worth it.

Now time for me to see me now. So if anyone has a struggle with their weight, you can lose it. You have to want to. I am here as a sounding board. Yes I have been there and gone through it and still going through it. Next is skin removal of the stomach. Insurance will cover this because it is a hindrance. But the huge arms and saggy boobs will always be a reminder. I am not going back to that fat person.

I hope this will help someone struggling in their life because no ones life is perfect. We have to make it happen and we have to succeed ourselves. I have accomplished 137 pounds in less than two years and I have proved to myself I am worth it. God bless anyone who has read this whole post and I hope it helped you to understand my struggles. Thank you.